Publication of the book

Here I thought that I would be excited when my book is available to the public. To search, find and see it on sites like amazon.com or any bookstore computer... it would have been the last prove to so many things...

But no, there is nothing... Actually, that is not true. It is more like, "yea, that's normal, right?" What's the big dead about it? I wanted it, got it and now I will work as hard as i can to make it my career. In the end, it is just the same as with every other job out there. I have obligations... things to write...

There is really no difference between me and a person working in the retail business - oh, what i do by the way. If that person wants to do that with his/her whole heart, there will be sucess and happiness. That is all I want and writing gives it to me. It is my job and I take it that seriously. Just as a teller in a bank - I better do my job right, otherwise I'm out of business and have to find something else, what i really don't want to do, because I found what I need to do to be happy.

Waiting for the Book

Well, this is it. I got the final e-mail, which said that the book is in final production. The next time I will see it is going to be in book format.

It's going to be another two-four weeks, but what is a months, when one waited for almost ten years? Nothing...

The funny thing is that I am not really excited about it. That is, I'm not feeling bubblely (is that a word?- :) -). I'm not waiting impatiently for the package with the books. I actually forget about it for a few days and then, usually when I check my e-mail, I see the message from Janet and it all comes back.

Sometimes I wonder what happened to all the excitement I had for the story just a couple years ago. I still have it, don't get me wrong, but something calmed me down. Maybe, subconsciously, I started to believe that it will never happen - or I'm in denial that it actually does- :D.

Well, let's see how I'm going to react when I actually hold the book.

Broadway knocking

The most important thing that I have learned over the last years is that one needs connections to have sucess in the entertainment world. And they are impossible to get, right?

Who knows George Lucas, Mel Gibson or Peter Jackson? A few... but who has their phone numbers? Who dares to call them, would even get through to them? Their employers do, but you and me sure don't.

They would just look at us and their "bodyguards" would push us away, without asking who we are, because... we are nobody.

If you ever start to believe that, drop everything you believe in! Quit! Because it is not worth it!The person who believes to be great - just have sucess on a "enough" stage - will never even come close.

Picture a staircase.

People like you and me are on the bottom, people like George Lucas are on top. So who is on step one, two, three... fifty?

Nobody can jump from the bottom to the top. Look for the people that stand just a step or two above you, or at least live on that stage.

And they are all around us.

Just today, I have met a person who played with Barbara Streisand on Broadway many years ago. His name is Ron.

I don'y know much about him, since I only spoke with him for about half an hour. But he is those steps higher than me. He has experience and can help, give advice - like a mentor.

Maybe it won't help, but to put everything in short: Look for artists that are just a little higher than you and when you are on their level, go to the next and next. Follow the latter and one day, one can be on top.

Because one thing I know is that fourty years ago, George Lucas was normal "kid" , just like I am today. And you! Talk about what you want to do. Ask for help, find people with the same interest and find out who they know - you may be surprised where things can end up!