Why my book 'sounds' funny

I watched a commentary from George Lucas last night, on how he made A new Hope all these years ago. I am not the biggest Star Wars Fan, but his words reminded me of what I'm going through at the moment.

He said that so many people disagreed and doubted his movies, because it had been never made before. He ran into so many problems, including money and his own perfection - nothing was ever the way he wanted - but the way it had to be, because that is all he could do.

It was something new, a foolish idea. But he had this belief that it would work. His story would work even thogh his friends told him otherwise...

I had friends telling me the same thing, but nobody was louder about towards that subject than myself.

I have this idea, that I want to tell a story in a new dialect, with bad grammar and other problems. ... - THAT COULD SO BACKFIRE ON ME!!

But I just believe that it is part of the story, since the story has its origion in a totally different world - and I want the book, The Prince of the Universe, be part of that world. I want it to be as close to it as possible and part of it is the language spoken in the Realm, the home of my characters.

So only two things can happen now. Either, it backfires on me and people will complain that they cannot read the story, or people ignore the grammer and take the story for what it is.

It is written simple enough and has been read by people in their teens to people in their fourties. Only one told me that he could not get through the grammar, but all the others had no problems.

Finally, I guess it will depend on very single person and their judgment. Read it and enjoy it, or don't. Just as it is with every other book and writer. You either don't like them, or you do.

Been there, done that - again

I named it the wall. I don't know yet what it is, but it reminds me of the feeling of running into something constantly, getting hurt and running back into it again.

Over time, one doesn't only start to feel dizzy, but also stupid and frustrated. I guess that is how I feel at the moment - totally frustrated with myself.

I got the book back from the publisher and just as I expected - there are still mistakes in there... SIGH! Man that is annoying!

I have no idea how many people read the story by now and they all did not catch this, or that? Including myself? ... :)

Oh well, let's go for it again...

Self-publish? - Are you stupid?

This is so stupid! This is just like a term-paper or a book. You know what you want to write, yet you can't start, because nothing is good enough. It's always that stupid!

Good, now the page has some words on it. - :)

Here is what I want to write about:

1. I'm going to be a published writer. I'm going to have my own book out - what so many people doubted.
I wanted to make them feel bad, return to them as soon as the book is out, but now... I'm so happy about it happening, that I don't want to make them feel bad anymore. They probably feel bad enough as it is - and proud, what is partly what I always wanted. Them standing behind me, so why hold a grudge?

2. - was there a second? ??? :) I guess not.
Well, actually, there is. I had my first public appearance and now my old High School is all into having me speak in front of their classes as well. The press is going to be there...

That's just great. Talking in front of a few was fine, talking about hundred+ ...

I guess I want it to happen. Since the book is self-published... oh yeah, self-published - that just makes it great! What kind of writer am I? That bad and blind so I cannot understand that publisher and agents don't want me?

No. I had the interest of a proper agency and they wanted to represent me, but I turned them down.

Why did I do that? Well, I guess I think and write about that later.