Changes

A lot of changes are coming up, and as much as I want them and as much as they are needed - I am scared to death. I feel as if I am standing on a cliff, looking down to the water and knowing, that I have to jump.
Now I know that can swim. I know that I will not drown - but to just jump is the hardest part of everything. Starting anything to make a change is the hardest thing in life - I think - at least for me. :-)

Anyway - yes, I have a lot of dreams and aspirations. Some of them are so crazy and far fetched that people call me mad, a hopeless dreamer and unrealistic - but how do you know unless you try?
If I want to be making $10,000 in ten years every month back to back for the rest of your life- and if there would be a way - would you not try it?

Logic and Heart

One makes a decision because of logic or by heart. Either one goes for it because it makes sense, or ones does it because it feels right.

The two like to fight each other.... Yet in the long run, don't you think it's logical to follow the matters of your heart and faith?

Need to focus...

:) There are too many things going on at the moment and the fact that I'm going to be married in two months has nothing to do with it. LOL!

But honestly, we finally got a date and all the other things my fiance and I want to do at the at the moment is truely insane. I wish we could focus on one thing at the time and not try everything at once...

I mean, we want a house, which, btw, he have been offered one in Maine, but since we can't live there for another 1-2 years, we want to look around for one here in CT until we go up there.
Then he wants a store for his card-gaming and his friends...

I really want to edit my book and finished, and at the same time I want to get truely going with my friend Kat on a comic-version for it... She is so good! :D

At the same time, money needs to come in now to cover the bills like rent and the usual stuff... no wonder I'm sick again. :D .... :(
I sleep and eat horribly and push my body to the edge... Again, I don't mind! - but it's still not good for the body. ^^; Mind over matter - right...

I think there is only so much I can do... if I could only settle on one thing - which is no problem, but since I want to do them all and my dear fiance (God knows how much I love him :D ) comes out seemingly every day with a different plan, as in "we need to get (insert) going and then that..."

That is all good and well... but not all at once. It's not going to kill me - I'm a fighter in the end and know what I want - but too much will surely burn me out and then I will not finish a single thing.

Need to focus...

:) There are too many things going on at the moment and the fact that I'm going to be married in two months has nothing to do with it. LOL!

But honestly, we finally got a date and all the other things my fiance and I want to do at the at the moment is truely insane. I wish we could focus on one thing at the time and not try everything at once...

I mean, we want a house, which, btw, he have been offered one in Maine, but since we can't live there for another 1-2 years, we want to look around for one here in CT until we go up there.
Then he wants a store for his card-gaming and his friends...

I really want to edit my book and finish and at the same time get working with my friend Kat on a comic-version for it...

At the same time, money needs to come in now to cover the bills like rent and the usual stuff... no wonder I'm sick again. :D .... :(

I think there is only so much I can do... if I could only settle on one thing - which is no problem, but since I want to do them all and my dear fiance (God knows how much I love him :D ) comes out seemingly every day with a different plan, as in "we need to get (insert) going and then that..."

That is all good and well... but not all at once. It's not going to kill me - I'm a fighter in the end and know what I want - but too much will surely burn me out and then I will not finish a single thing.

A small problem resolved

Nothing big but still a blast for me to find out. :D I believed for the last half a year that my book would not be available to people through bookstores. Meaning, since it's POD, bookstores do not carry them anymore.

That is very true with Borders but not with Barnes and Noble. :) I was very happy about the fact that people can go there and order it and that will help me very much revise and republish it, because I know that the story is good.

Wrestlemania 22

I am not a huge WWE fan, but I do consider myself a faithfull watcher of the show and I do know enough names that one will find out, that I follow the happenings rather well.

:D Today was Wrestlemania and it was one of the best I've seen... but that is beside the point. I picked a personal fav very early after I started watching the WWE and to be honest - three years ago... yes, he was popular and fantastic in his style... yet, people watching the WWE always gave me the impression that he would never make it up to a HHH or other Champions - alone because of his size. (He is the smallest - yet fastest! - in the WWE (as far as I can tell :D ) .

Either way - today - he won. He's the WWE Heavy Weight Champion - and I still can't believe it. Alone because he's such a tiny - NON-'heavy-weight' ... ^^;

Either way! You go Rey! ^^

Pirate's Game

In the long run, I believe that nothing great is achieved over night and that things should just fall into place if one is 'destined' ( big word - :D ) to do so.

Well, I don't think I'll ever have a carrer on stage, but I do have a part of the Simsbury Light Opera Company (Sloco) over the next two weekends - playing a pirate and opening the play. :D I'm not saying a thing, just shoving four boats across the stage and try to look as goofy as possible (since it's sorta a funny play) (don't know if I agree with that.. :D )

Anyway... It's fun and I am very proud to be part of the tradition of Sloco to show a stage-play ever year at the Simsbury High School. :D Besides the fact that the students look upon you as stupid walking in all dressed up - but that is part of being an entertainer - making people react in any way possible - and hopefully make them laugh out loud!